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Kate Freelander ([personal profile] girlsolo) wrote2012-03-08 02:56 am
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After March 9: the broken locks were a warning you got inside my head

Ever since she found Finnick screaming for Annie, Kate's been restless. Strung tight like she hasn't been for months now. Not even when she realized B (Buffy, not Bella) was gone so soon after William's Uncle Jack. That'd just been sad, in that slow, aching way that punching bags or bodies doesn't help.

She can't sleep, even with Declan, and since Bonny keeps him up about half the time anyway, it'd be a dick move to take up more of his sack time with trying to tire her out. It probably wouldn't work anyway. Running, swimming, surfing, training, chasing kids, playing hoops, target practice, nothing works, and it's only gotten worse since Bella fell.

If she does sleep, she dreams of Thad getting eaten by the Sorkel instead of Constantine, or seeing dad get blown up but turning into Jimmy at the last second, or Will turning into a Psillobar or not coming back after Kali, or Biggie dead and Magnus batshit and it really doesn't take her shrink best pal to work out the kinks in her psyche (not that kind, but he can probably figure those out too, which is why they're never, ever talking about it). She's freaked out about the roots she's putting down here. Even more freaked out about not having anywhere to run when it hurts too much to stay. And don't even get her started about not being able to protect the people she's let herself care about.

It's late, it's dark, drinking just makes her emotionally sloppy, getting high makes her think too much. She's sick of everything and crawling out of her skin. So what makes a blind run down to the Compound a good idea? The promise of a shower, maybe some tea, and a movie at the end of it. She can watch movies on her laptop, but she left it at Declan's and the last time Bonny licked her in her sleep, she had dreams of being trapped in a cave with a million squirmy worms.

So she's scanning the bookshelf for something decent to watch instead of choosing from everything she loves in her own space. The hot shower and tea have just managed to soothe the sharpest of her edges off when the light catches on reel in a shiny case, fallen on a diagonal in a gap between two others.

Kate freezes.

Sanctuary

Instantly the edges are gone and Kate busts out all over spines. Like a porcupine or pufferfish. But she can't help reaching for the reel. And the next one. And the next and the next and the next and the next. Seven in all. Kali, pts 1, 2 and 3, which she shoves in the hemp bag she brought with her. She knows what that is. Penance, she knows that from the script, and shoves it away too, all the way to the bottom. Metamorphosis, and maybe Kate's not the most educated person but she remembers the Kafka jokes from when Will was turning into that thing and that goes into the bottom of the bag with him dying to save the world from a giant sea spider, while she swallows back the acid and the chill. The Bank Job's pretty self-evident, and even makes her smile a little. If Will knew, if they hadn't agreed not to tell him, she could show him that reel. They'd had fun on that job. But she can't, so she bags it too.

The last one's called Acolyte and she can't think of anything that's happened that might get that title. The smart thing to do is bury them before they can fuck her up more, but it's like Danny with Grace. Kate has to know. She has to know what's happening to Hank and Biggie, to the versions of Will and Magnus, Declan and Tesla and herself that she left back home.

Wishing there were somewhere private to watch these things, Kate edges over to the projector, head low and trying not to catch the attention of any of the other night owls. She fumbles the canister open with shaking fingers and snaps the film onto the arm. It takes a couple of tries to get it fed through, but she does, starts the film, hops the back of the couch and then sinks low into it.

It starts with Will's voice saying "Previously on Sanctuary" and she laughs nervously. That dissolves at Magnus looking gorgeous and talking to Will. It cuts to a guy she doesn't recognize talking about Hollow Earth saying they just signed the Sanctuary's death warrant.

"Typical genre melodramatic bullshit," she mutters to cover the catch in her chest at seeing and hearing Biggie, then Will, Declan and Henry are driving through the jungle talking about Magnus and where is she?

Will shouts, "Magnus, come in. You've got to get out of there now--!" and then a hotel explodes. It crumbles like the Twin Towers to the sound of Declan, master of British understatement saying, "My God."

Credits roll, Kate can't decide if she loves the music or hates it, but she knows how this stuff works, so she's not panicked about Magnus blowing up. Not yet. But exploding buildings and people she cares about…yeah.

Half an hour later, she's seen herself come up from Hollow Earth - she's living down there? - to deliver a message to Magnus, interrogate some dude from species she doesn't know with Will (who says Hollow Earth is treating her well), find a bunch of dead humans and Abnormals and uncover a key piece of evidence in a terrorist plot. Biggie's brainwashed. "Fuck this fucking show! Goddamn it! It better not be real!" because she's crying and she doesn't cry and that's before she and Magnus get through the gate guards "the old-fashioned way," "Krav-Maga them" according to this Addison asshole, and she smashes Biggie in the head with a fire extinguisher -

To keep him from blowing himself and her and Magnus up with his suicide bomb vest.

They get him out, but the hotel explodes anyway, their van rolls, and Kate sees herself unconscious, battered, bleeding ,and Magnus sounding terrified when she calls her name. Cut to Will sitting by a bed reading, her bed, she realizes, and they do the wake up dance. She's been out for a week, Magnus did two surgeries, Sally's been helping remap Biggie's brain and Kate's…

Running her fingers over a bracelet. The bracelet. The goddamned bracelet that was in her jewelry box. What the hell?

"Did the doc say when I'll be well enough to travel?"

"Calm down, okay? You just woke up."

"I just really should be getting back to Hollow Earth. People will be worried."

"Is that a… Herusan promise band? From Garris? I looked it up."

"Yes."

Yes?!

"Congratulations."

"Thanks."


"Oh, fuck me sideways." Kate pauses, her stomach flips over in a tight, hot knot and her voice is raw from crying. "Seriously?" She doesn't even know this Garris guy.

[[ooc: There's a youtube full episode here and a transcript here. Feel free to find Kate at any point of the episode. If you come before she starts the reel, she may not or may choose a different one, depending. Caveat: Cerie and Callie do not want Magnus and Will canon-punctured, so if yours are going to need to tell them, please don't tag. ]]
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[personal profile] trytobegood 2012-03-11 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
"Not much," I replied. "Enough to know it was somewhat personal, about your life, events you mayhap have not yet lived through. I do not need to know more, unless you wish to tell me." I could see the anger, curled within her, and I sat, quiet and still, waiting to see what she would do.
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[personal profile] first_pink_lady 2012-03-11 07:44 am (UTC)(link)
"That bracelet mean you're wearing that fella's ring?" Rizzo said, tilting her head, looking from the screen to Kate, because, hell, that was the way it was looking. And if there was a non-marrying type, Rizzo would've thought Kate would be in that camp.
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[personal profile] blackb3ltbarbie 2012-03-11 06:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Phoebe mentally winced. Which meant it was either a 'vision' of what would be or what happened to another Kate.

She understood all too well the feeling of homesickness and it would be threefold to see a film of your life with the people that you missed. A bittersweet kick in the stomach. She didn't push the conversation but drew her legs up under her chin and watched.

"He's cute." Phoebe said with a hint of a smile when she saw Henry, trying to keep it light in the tension you could cut with a knife. "In a geek kind of way."
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[personal profile] thedevamper 2012-03-11 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"Why Katherine I didn't realise my mere presence turned you on quite that much," Nikola said to Kate's little outburst. It's not like that he hasn't thought about it, once or twice or a dozen but really fucking Kate sideways really wasn't in the cards at the moment. And not just because he actually liked having Declan as a friend which was a fact he was never going to mention outloud. "Not that I'm not flattered dearest Kate but I'm a little busy right now to be satisf- are you crying?"
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[personal profile] everyone_takes 2012-03-11 08:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Kate shrugs, her shoulders lifting, because the way she sees this place most of the time? Nothing means much of anything. Or it all means too much, which isn't something she wants to think about, so she goes the other way.

"Does it have to mean anything?" she asks, echoing what other people have said to her. "I mean, it's just doing this to fuck with you. All it means is that it thinks these things will do something, get some kinda reaction. I don't know if it has to mean anything else."
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[personal profile] blackb3ltbarbie 2012-03-11 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
"I have that affect on a lot of people or rather my boobs do." Phoebe laughed and settled more comfortably, glad that the tension was easing slightly but it was still an undercurrent surrounding Kate. When Magnus appears on the screen, Phoebe watches her fighting style more than the woman herself. It was a habit.

"Damn, she's good." Phoebe wondered if Magnus felt restless with only island life and no action like that or if it was something that you would adapt to after awhile. She kind of hoped for the last one.
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[personal profile] thedevamper 2012-03-11 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Nikola smirked at the snarl, sliding into the space beside her. Offering her the bottle of rather disgustingly rough alcohol, Nikola rolled up his sleeves and smirked a little more at her astonishment.

"I met a... fan. And why would I? It's just a show, true it's about us and it's lacking in quality well me time but it's just that. A show, why should I care about it?" Nikola replied. "Parallel universes, alternate dimensions, they're all distinct possibilities. And well, as you can see, in one of those we're entirely fictional."
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[personal profile] blackb3ltbarbie 2012-03-12 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
When Kate's comment was cut off and her body stiffened, everything in Phoebe stiffened with her in empathy. She might not have any idea what is truly going on, on the screen but she understands the emotion. There were so many times that she thought the same thing with Cole. That she instantly defended him, knowing that there was something else that would explain his actions. Phoebe wouldn't say that she was never wrong about him but she rarely was.

She also trusted Kate's instincts to know her people. If her gut told her that it was some kind of trick, then it was.
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[personal profile] gonnabefine 2012-03-12 09:17 am (UTC)(link)
Were it up to her, Olivia would have chosen not to walk in on what should have been a private moment. Finding out one was fictional had to be a blow no matter how well adjusted that person was, and though she found she liked Kate in some strange way, she didn't think she was the sort of person to be there while she watched...whatever it was.

She saw just enough - Kate on the projector, Kate in the rec room - to immediately back out of the doorway, bookshelves already forgotten. Olivia busied herself for a little while in the lab, hovering over Walter, but she eventually made her way back down the hall, hesitation in every step.

There hadn't been anyone else in the room. Olivia knew Kate had friends, but she couldn't just turn away again. Not when she heard Kate's voice.

She pushed the rec room door open and walked in quietly, still only a few feet from the door. Just in case.

"Kate?" Olivia's voice was loud enough to be heard over the projector, but low enough so as not to startle her, if she hadn't already heard her walk in.
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[personal profile] chasedthestars 2012-03-12 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"Too cutesy?" Jim asks, but he knows she's well past smiling right now, and sits down next to her. "Okay. But I'm staying, too," he says, eyes flicking back to what's happening on the wall. It's hard to get a handle on what it is. That's Kate, and those are others he's seen on the island, but the scenes move more like entertainment than documentary. Reenactment? If so, why? "What are we looking at here?"
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[personal profile] trytobegood 2012-03-12 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"Noted," I said, staying where I was as Kate rose and moved to the projector. I knew somewhat about not wishing to share information with just anyone.

"What is the significance of a Herusan promise band?" It seemed simple, the answer, but perhaps it was not.
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[personal profile] everyone_takes 2012-03-12 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know. Maybe you'll find out some day," she answers, curling her arms around her knees and looking over at the screen. Pursing her lips in thought, she wonders if it's like this for everyone. If, one day, it'll be like this for her. Seeing things that she can't remember, that only Lionel ever knew.

Lionel, who's gone now, back home to whatever shitty death awaits him. Kate doesn't like to think on that much, but when stuff like this happens, it's sort of hard not to. This is when everything comes crashing back, when she remembers that the island fucks with everyone. Everyone.

"Or maybe you won't. Maybe it's some alternate world that you'll never find out about one way or the other. I don't know. I'm like, the worst comfort ever."

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