"Except whether I want it." Over and over and over again. She sighs and tips her head away to get some cooler air. If her face doesn't feel hot, she won't feel as much like crying. "I'm not your heart-to-heart kind of girl. Ask Will."
She draws her hand up his arm and back down. She doesn't do talks, but Declan cares and he needs her. She needs him to. "When things are fucked in my life, they tend to stay that way. I fixed things once." It was the hardest thing she ever did. And the best, but that's not the point right now. "The Sanctuary was right enough to make me want to be someone else. I don't want this island, but I don't want to be who I was before the Sanctuary either. Making myself okay with being here means giving up on the life I fought for. I'm not ready for that. But I don't have a choice." Because I don't want to lose what I have left of home by shoving it away.
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Date: 2011-10-06 09:18 pm (UTC)She draws her hand up his arm and back down. She doesn't do talks, but Declan cares and he needs her. She needs him to. "When things are fucked in my life, they tend to stay that way. I fixed things once." It was the hardest thing she ever did. And the best, but that's not the point right now. "The Sanctuary was right enough to make me want to be someone else. I don't want this island, but I don't want to be who I was before the Sanctuary either. Making myself okay with being here means giving up on the life I fought for. I'm not ready for that. But I don't have a choice." Because I don't want to lose what I have left of home by shoving it away.