[for Declan] Can't stop coming in hot

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In the game of I never, Kate almost always loses. She grew up fast and grew up hard, and she's done all the things people usually ask about and plenty they don't. But if the question was I've never arranged a date for my boyfriend on his birthday, Kate wouldn't have to drink. She probably would drink, because truth isn't an absolute for Kate. It's what she wants someone to know or not know about her.

She's given up lying like breathing but she didn't tell anyone (but the one person who counts) she's never done anything like this before. The whole package. The individual parts are familiar. Like the LBD she put together from scraps of black fabric from the clothing box. The black heels which she hates to walk in, but are fine for standing, eating, and fucking in. The bland beige belted trenchcoat (hand-fitted, but not re-pieced). Even the loose shoulder-brushing curls and hints of kohl around her eyes. All familiar. Dinner reservations, check. Surprise dessert (or breakfast, depending on how they roll), check. Note in his mailbox and on his door, check. It's just putting them all together and making them work she's not sure about.

Not that she's ever admitting that to anyone. What Declan doesn't know, doesn't hurt him. And right now all he knows is to meet her at her place at sunset. Where she'll conveniently not be, just long enough for him to sit down and wait while Kate watches, invisible from behind some nearby trees.

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title lyrics from Pink's Raise Your Glass

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It's too much and not enough, the rough-and-slick rub of callused fingers. She's so sensitive from before, it's like she's all cunt where she's not exploding heart.

Needy in ways she doesn't want to think about, Kate plants her feet and tilts her hips and tries to get his fingers into her, deeper. If he's not going to fuck her right now (which is fine and she doesn't want to think about that, either), she needs something to stop that empty pulsing ache.

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When Kate shifts, Declan tugs his mouth away, question in his eyes and on his lips.

"Too much teasing, is it? Need more from me?"

It's not meant to be a tease, this statement, it's an honest question. If she needs something, he wants to provide it.

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Usually when he asks her crap like that, she gets annoyed. It's not like it's a mystery. But tonight she's just grateful (which she hates). She wraps her fingers around his wrist and tugs it down further.

"Don't need the O now or anything. Just...after before... I--" What's weird is she's kind of shy about words right now. Not because she'll say the wrong ones but because she doesn't want to say any. She flicks her gaze up to his and holds it, hot and dark, then licks her bottom lip to wet it and nods. "Feel..." A shrug. "Open. Too open." Empty. Fly away. Cinderella at ten minutes to midnight.

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"I understand," Declan says quietly and he thinks he does. He shifts to cover her, sliding one hand up along her thigh as he shifts them apart.

"I want this, now, unless?"

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"No unless. Now's good," Kate murmurs to him and kisses his chest, his neck, his jaw while she wraps her leg up around his hips. It's partly pure fucking gratitude for not having to get too deep in spelling it out. Partly though...

Fuck, partly it's just that he's hers and she wants him and she needs him to know that and she needs ways to tell him that. Kisses are easier than words and she's pretty sure nothing's getting lost in translation.

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Kisses are much easier than words. So's the movement of his hips and the way she just fits him like a glove. It's not something he'd ever really thought would happen, finding someone that he's this in sync with, but Declan suspects he might be ruined for other women now.

He doesn't particularly care if he is.

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"Ohgod." The words slip out and Kate shudders under him. She can't control her breath that comes out in a long, whimpery whine, and she's too busy reaching behind her with one hand, and by her hip with the other, to grip the bed while her hips lift into him to try. He feels...fuck, he feels so damned good.

She bites her lip and closes her eyes and tries to just feel and not think about why. It's hard. Because she knows why.

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Declan kisses her forehead, her nose, both cheeks and finally makes his way back to her mouth while moving in her. He likes kissing, actually, and especially with Kate and he hopes she's feeling as good as he does right now, that she's as happy with him as he is with her.

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Kate slides her hand into his hair and holds his mouth to hers. She likes when he kisses her while they're fucking. It's not something she's ever liked before, but it's Declan. "Everything's different with you," she whispers, breathless and wraps her leg up around his hips. "Everything."

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"I want it to be," Declan admits. He's still moving slow, taking his time, and the words are little more than breaths between long, deep kisses.

"I want to be unique to you, love, and I always want it to be good."

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Between thrusts and kisses and heated breaths, Kate manages to tell him, "This is the best it's ever been, babe. Every time." It's so good with him. So hot. And there's this livewire connection between them. More than just chemistry. She knows that.

She slides a hand down his back, stroking him and confesses something else. "Already been with you more times than anyone else, ever."

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"Suddenly glad I'm a repeat offender," Declan teases, then goes softer and more sincere. "I want to be the only one for as long as you want me. I just want to be the only one."

To be special to someone the way he is to Kate, it isn't something he's ever really had.

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"You are," Kate gives up on a long, hushed moan. "Don't want anyone else." She really doesn't. That's new and it freaks her out a lot. Makes her want to cling and run at the same time.

Her hips roll, body moving with his, keeping him in her as deep as she can. Nowhere to run right now. "Just you."

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"Love you," Declan murmurs, rocking deeper into her and kissing along her neck and shoulder where he could reach. She feels so damned good and he's so in love with her that it's bloody stupid and, yet, he doesn't really feel scared.

"So close, love. Always close with you."

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Kate's heard a lot of things during a good fuck. Maybe she's even heard I love you, but not from someone who meant it. Her fingers curl deep into the muscles of his back and she hauls herself up his cock, spreads herself wider to let him in, as far in as he can be.

She tilts her head aside, offering her throat, too. Offering herself for him to mark, as dark as he wants to match the claim he already fucking seared into her brain. "All yours," she tells him because she can't say what he probably really wants to hear.

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"I know," Declan whispers and it's not cocky or conceited, it's just fact. She's his as much as he's hers and he likes it that way and seals it by sucking against her neck and scraping his teeth lightly to make a mark.

It's enough to tip him over the edge, too, being that possessive.

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The scrape of his teeth take her with him, that and how sure he is. It's not explosive this time, but a slow, pulsing wave that starts deep in her cunt and sweeps out over her body into the palms of her hands and soles of her feet.

Instead of collapsing back and sprawling under him like she usually does, Kate pushes him off to the side and then immediately wraps her arm around his hips and burrows close.

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Declan kisses the top of her hair, curling close around her. He likes this, keeping her close, and it's possibly the best birthday present he could ever receive.

"Feeling all right, Katie?"

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Kate nods sharply, eyes squeezed shut as she wraps more tightly around him. Like if she can't see it, she's not doing it. If she keeps her eyes shut, she's not practically begging for him to hold and love her.

It's stupid, is what it is. She's not a scared kid. She's a grown woman and it's all completely ridiculous.

She's still doing it.

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Declan just rubs her back for a moment, trying to soothe her and make sure she feels safe. It's important that she always feels safe with him, no matter what he has to do to make that happen.

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"It's okay. I'm fine," she whispers to him, lips caressing along his throat. She doesn't want him to get the wrong idea. "We're good, babe." Too good. That's really the problem. It's too damn good and she doesn't know what to do with that.

"Just..." Her fingers curl against his abs. "You love me." She hopes he understands how huge that is.

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"I do," Declan confirms. No sense in taking it back when it bleeds through in every word and every action and since she doesn't seem to be running, it's all right for now.

"I do love you, Kate."

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Her hair's stuck to her face. She's sweat-slick and her thighs are smeared with his cum. Any makeup she'd managed had to be streaked or running. Somehow she's never felt hotter in her life.

Kate smiles a little, soft and sort of shy, then presses a kiss to his mouth. "No one's ever been in love with me before." That she knows of. Except in that alternate timeline with Will and that wasn't her so it doesn't count.

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"Well, I am," Declan says, unable to keep from grinning like a giddy child. "It's probably insane but I don't really care."

Especially not when she'd gone to all this effort for his birthday like he's something special.

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"Not insane." She sits up, abruptly, and runs her hand down his arm. "It's not insane. Reckless and stupid and I'll probably end up making you regret it like fifteen times a minute, but not crazy." Which is as close as she's coming to telling him how she feels as they're getting.

"Gonna guess we're not going out tonight, yeah?"